So here's the thing...

I didn't even know how to describe how I've been feeling the past few months.  I know I've definitely been "feeling".  But not sure how to exactly put it into a word.  A definition. Perhaps that is why I love photography.  Words not necessary.  But sometimes...it speaks for you.

"Broken"
Bethlehem, Pennsylvania

I wasn't planning a post today.  Too much is going on in my life at the moment. But as I'm prone to do, I get distracted.  I call it "distracted", but truth is I escape.   To photography. To creating.  And this morning I decided to take a few minutes an hour to edit some photos that have been piling up. And that is when the word finally came to me.  Broken. Yep, too many windows shot out of my being in such a short amount of time.

Since November our family has lost too many.  Aunts, Uncles, Cousins.  And another loss is unfortunately imminent. A loss that will hit even closer to the family core. Cancer has played a role in all of them.  The latest losses have left my heart so very, very heavy.  And the weight will only increase in the coming days.  There is my own sadness.  But MUCH worse is seeing the sadness of those I love.  The latter is what leaves me feeling broken. My faith tells me there is a plan. A reason. To trust and believe.  Believe me, I am trying.

So yes, there are parts of me that are broken.  And it's those parts I am greatly feeling these days. Luckily, I am so very fortunate that the unbroken parts of my being abundantly outnumber those that are broken.

I am sad, but not hopeless.  I am tired, but not lifeless. I am afraid, but not powerless.  I am angry, but not bitter.  I am depressed, but not given up.  I do not understand, but have faith.  And I also know that altho I am isolated by circumstances these days, I am far from alone in what we are experiencing.

Prayers to all who are feeling broken.

Here's where I "link up" today

 

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