So here is the irony of "freedom". The irony of being able to do whatever you want. Or, The irony of being able to NOT do whatever you don't want...
Tyler State Park
Bucks County, Pennsylvania
Sometimes you actually get very little done. Time management. Discipline. Questionable choices. I could easily be lecturing my college freshman. Instead, it appears all the freedoms that come along with my new-found empty nest, are stifling MOI. I start off each day with my "to do" list of empty boxes just waiting to be checked off. Unfortunately I seem to end each day the exact same way.
I'm missing in action (M.I.A.). I barely pick up my camera. I blog sporadically. I sleep in too late. I get easily distracted (Look! A squirrel!). The only reason my house is cleaner, is because there is less mess being made (regardless, I'm going to count that as a win). I'm full of good intentions that dwindle with each passing hour of the day.
It appears the college freshman and I are navigating similar paths. I've never NOT been accountable to anyone. I've never NOT been on a schedule. I've NEVER not had time constraints. I've NEVER been in total control. And I've NEVER gotten so little done in a day.
I had a little talk with the college freshman yesterday about expectations and responsibilities. In the course of the conversation I told her,
"I could never be disappointed in you unless you didn't get something you wanted,
when the situation was entirely in your control."
In the context of our talk, I had to pat myself on the back for my motherly brilliance. You know, those opportunities for self-satisfaction don't just present themselves all that often. However, 24 hours of self-reflection later...I need to morph that pat on the back, into a kick in the butt. A college education isn't just for my freshman. I feel like we are bracketing the experience on both ends. Walking the same path. Noticing the same scenery. Learning from the same situation. Makind adjustments. The Better Half should be happy the college tuition bill apparently is a two-for-one deal, and that I am yet again doing my best to...save him money (yeah, gonna count THAT as a win too!).
Freedom can be intoxicating. Freedom can be distracting. Freedom can be overwhelming. And sometimes, ya just gotta reign in that freedom a bit so you don't wind up MIA. That goes for both college freshmen AND certain moms who apparently are at the bottom of the grading curve. I love when I'm right. And there are times when I hate being right. But for the moment, I'm just gonna be happy I am figuring out that maaaaaaybe...I need some self imposed directions to keep me on track with all this new found freedom. Which should NOT be confused with the laundry washed, dried and folded. I mean seriously, adjustments can only go so far.
M.IA. no mo'.
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